Daily dairy

Mai aaj pahali bar aaj likhne ki koshish kr rhi hu.ab tk ka samay kaise bita hr pl yad hai mujhe.such khu 'jivan mai mujhe shukh tow mila lekin kbhi sukun nhi mila.mera man hamesha bhatkta rha hmesha.mai apno ko bhut pyar krti hu.jivan ke kthin samay mai apne hi sath dete hain pr mere sath aisa kuch nhi huaa.kisi ne mujhe sath nhi diya .khte hain ki ma pita aur bhai ye hmesha apne hote hain pr such kahu ye mere kbhi nhi huye .inhone hmesha dukh aur vishvasghat kiya mere sath.ak ladki ka sabse bada sapna hota hai uski shadi.mujhe bhut dukh ho rha hai yh btate huye ki meri shadi aise ki gai jaise kisi dushman ki beti ya bhin ki  jati hai .ak aise ladke ke sath mere bhai ne shadi ki meri jo us samay kuch bhi nhi karta tha aur mere bhaiya ne mujhe uski bhut bdi post btaai thi.mai bhut khush thi ki meri shadi itni achchi jagah ho rhi hai .jb shadi hokar mai ghar aai tow mere pairon ke niche se jamin khisak gai.mujhe aisa lga ab mujhe  mar jsna chahiye mujhe.pr maine aisa nhi kiya ...